HL-RG

Where to begin here. There was a time when I thought relationships could just be simple, and really when you're young, that's easy. Being a little older, but still young, mostly, it's a little more complicated, but really can be just as simple if I'd let it be.

I met this girl through a common athletic activity we share and both enjoy doing. She's older than me by a few years, and we really did hit it off right away. She's been attracted to me and knew who I was for a little while before we met, but once we met, there's been good chemistry.

Once I was separated, the relationship really began to grow, but there have been numerous hiccups. All of those seem to be as a result of my current standing in life. There's several things going on... getting over my failed marriage, never having been in the dating scene, and just not being fully "ready" for a new relationship so soon after my marriage.

However, there are several factors leaning towards that. First off, our time together is generally pretty awesome. We have a great time, when we're not pre-occupied with the relationship "status" determination. I have a hard time imagining not being able to see her. The challenges come because I have a few female friends that seem to call me or text me at the worst times, sometimes. Also, when she goes out with a guy, I definitely get jealous. At this point, it's because I keep thinking that she'll move on if she finds someone better.

I've definitely thought long and hard about just making this an exclusive deal. It almost is... I'm not the kind of guy who can go out and just meet someone new. Maybe I can, as I think I'm a pretty nice guy and friendly with most, but I don't really pursue it. I have not had a date with anyone else. Heck, a friend has been trying to get me and another friend of her's hooked up, but I just haven't made that call. All because of this relationship.

It's hard for me to step away from it, but I'm not quite ready to just commit to it. Selfish? Most assuredly. But at this point, I'm not ready to change that. Still I keep leaning more and more that way. After we spend some time together, I just think that I need to. I enjoy kissing her and holding her hand and just doing things together.

The other added benefit is that she's just as sexually kinky as me. It's insanely hot. We even befriended another couple at a swing club a few weeks back, went back to their house and had a good ol' time. The girls had a little girl-on-girl action, while me and the husband watched, then we got it on with our respective ladies, with some touching of the other. It was very hot, and man was it awesome. I really enjoy having this couple friends with hl-rg. It's kind of a neat step to have made friends with someone between the two of us. They weren't her friends first, or my friends first. We met them together.

So, there's where I'm at. It's late, and I'm tired, so that's all I'm going to write for now. I'll cover more later.

Intro

I'll consider this somewhat of a "diary" of sorts. It's sort of private, in that I'm not really going to go giving out the address to people I actually know.

Some things about me that may drive how I blog.

Single - After a 9 year marriage, I'm find that I'm single in a world that I've never really been single in. The last time, I was a HS boy. Now, in my 30's, I'm thrust back into this world that I just don't know what to do with sometimes. It's kinda scary, but exciting all at once.

Dating - I'm heavily involved with a woman, and have been since my separation, before the divorce. She knows my kinks for the most part, and still sticks with me. She also knows that I'm not 100% ready to be in a "committed" relationship, and has been somewhat okay with that. I'm not smoothie when it comes to meeting and talking to women, so she really has nothing to worry about, but that's a topic to be expanded on later.

Active - I'm active physically and in my daughter's life. This alters my schedule from being able to just "party" all I want. I'd love to get out and drink, meet a woman at a bar from time to time, and just see what that's all about, but it's pretty low on the priority list these days. The girl I'm dating (here on, referred to as hl-rg) is pretty much who I hang out with most of the time that I get out of the house for fun.

Sexually Kinky - I'm into the hotwife deal. The cheating wife/hotwife "lifestyle" has always been a turn on to me. I'm not exactly sure when it began, but those stories, those videos, etc are just the hottest thing to me. I'm into swinging, as my ex and I were into that for a short amount of time. I'm bi-sexual, but really only in regards to sex. I don't really find men attractive, but being a bottom gets me going. I have limited experience in that arena, but again, to be expanded on later. Hl-rg is into just about everything I've described above, but we have only gone down this path in one instance... a story I'll share later.

Bi-Sexual - It started out as just a curiousity on sucking a cock. I knew how much I LOVED getting head, and really wanted to see why some women seemed opposed to it, while others seemed all about it. One day I had my chance to try it, and lo and behold, I really enjoyed it.

I think that covers it on the intro. There's plenty more to learn, but that will come in later posts. That's about all I have to say here.