HL-RG

Where to begin here. There was a time when I thought relationships could just be simple, and really when you're young, that's easy. Being a little older, but still young, mostly, it's a little more complicated, but really can be just as simple if I'd let it be.

I met this girl through a common athletic activity we share and both enjoy doing. She's older than me by a few years, and we really did hit it off right away. She's been attracted to me and knew who I was for a little while before we met, but once we met, there's been good chemistry.

Once I was separated, the relationship really began to grow, but there have been numerous hiccups. All of those seem to be as a result of my current standing in life. There's several things going on... getting over my failed marriage, never having been in the dating scene, and just not being fully "ready" for a new relationship so soon after my marriage.

However, there are several factors leaning towards that. First off, our time together is generally pretty awesome. We have a great time, when we're not pre-occupied with the relationship "status" determination. I have a hard time imagining not being able to see her. The challenges come because I have a few female friends that seem to call me or text me at the worst times, sometimes. Also, when she goes out with a guy, I definitely get jealous. At this point, it's because I keep thinking that she'll move on if she finds someone better.

I've definitely thought long and hard about just making this an exclusive deal. It almost is... I'm not the kind of guy who can go out and just meet someone new. Maybe I can, as I think I'm a pretty nice guy and friendly with most, but I don't really pursue it. I have not had a date with anyone else. Heck, a friend has been trying to get me and another friend of her's hooked up, but I just haven't made that call. All because of this relationship.

It's hard for me to step away from it, but I'm not quite ready to just commit to it. Selfish? Most assuredly. But at this point, I'm not ready to change that. Still I keep leaning more and more that way. After we spend some time together, I just think that I need to. I enjoy kissing her and holding her hand and just doing things together.

The other added benefit is that she's just as sexually kinky as me. It's insanely hot. We even befriended another couple at a swing club a few weeks back, went back to their house and had a good ol' time. The girls had a little girl-on-girl action, while me and the husband watched, then we got it on with our respective ladies, with some touching of the other. It was very hot, and man was it awesome. I really enjoy having this couple friends with hl-rg. It's kind of a neat step to have made friends with someone between the two of us. They weren't her friends first, or my friends first. We met them together.

So, there's where I'm at. It's late, and I'm tired, so that's all I'm going to write for now. I'll cover more later.